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Ok, there may be those of you who find this post too hippy dippy.

Trust me, I am among you.

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I wish I was a millionaire, and could keep a flat in Prague, a flat in Paris, a flat in New York, a flat in San Francisco.

I wish I was numb, so that I wouldn't feel this pain I know is going to hit me.

I wish I was more cynical and callous than I am, so that I could stop kicking posters of George Bush.

I wish I was European, preferably French.

I wish I could think of a nation on earth that hadn't commited great sins against man.

I wish I could really fall in love.

I wish I was home.

I wish that I never had to go home.

I wish that I could help everyone who needs help; barring that, I wish I could help my friends. Barring that, I wish I could help my girlfriend. Barring that, I wish I could help myself.

I wish for three more wishes.

I wish for all my desires and hopes and prognostications to be swept away like sand in a beach house, leaving only my skate board, my sore throat, and my habits.

I wish for an end to this wishy-washy maudlin feeling that takes control of me after a few glasses of red wine.

I wish for all my desires to take control of me, and let me live like the animal being that I am.

I wish that i didn't have a crush on the waitress at the restaurant where I write this.

I wish for an end to paradoxes, pain, and my seeking of hopeless situations.